Failed again...

Well, we didn't succeed at making a baby this month either. I feel like a defective human. All I want is one child, not much you would think but wrong when you talk about me. i can't seem to do anything right. i get married as an old lady, i can't loose weight to save my life, and I am just plain worthless. Why can't my body do something right? Is my point for being to help everyone else and to never have what I want. i don't want to be a martyr- let someone else do that job. i just want a little family and be normal. That is all I have ever wanted and I have never been normal. Why should I start now? Really?!?!