Tired...

I am tired. I just can't figure out why cause sleeping is not helping. I am emotionally tired. I cry at the drop of the hat and I am NOT pregnant. I can only wish. If you know of a way to get rid of this tiredness let me know.

Black Friday

Ok- perviously i had never partaken in the Black Friday maddness but since joining the Holsapple family i have now experienced it twice and I love it. I don't really like the getting up early part but otherwise I enjoyed it. I don't really need to get up that early to get anything because the things I want will still be there at 2:00 when I would normally go out but i run interverence for Jutta and keep her on track and let her know when she is going overboard. I am almost done shopping. I just have a few gift cards to pick up and Mr. Barry and Bart left. I pretty much know what I want to get for Bart but I am at a loss for Mr. Barry. Something will pop up...

Donna Alert!

Donna Downey is having an AWESOME give a way on her blog so go, no run to her blog and enter to win. It even includes $100 towards registration to her Inspired event. I would LOVE to go. I love that she dabbles in all kinds of media. Just like me. I paint (or try to) knit, scrapbook, make cards (anything out of paper for that matter and I am trying to take up sewing. So go check her blog out- you won't be sorry.

Happy Thanksgiving

I am so thankful this year. 2009 has been a great year. I am thankful for the spiritual journey I am on right now. I have been here before, questioning and floundering but this time I know I have faith and that I can count on that faith. I guess I am questioning the direction He wants me to go in rather than what is that I believe and do I any faith at all. I am thankful for my wonderful husband, who puts up with me. I am also thankful for his family. They have welcomed me with open arms and lots of love. I am also thankful for friends who are just like family. I could not have made it through this life so far without them. Life is good if not fair and I have a strong character and my faith in God to get me through anything. Happy Thanksgiving!

Not this month....

I started today. I am sad but not devastated. I was so sick last month during "the prime time" to get pg. One of the girls at work had her baby today, a beautiful baby girl. Kind of ironic. I swear the minute I give in and think I might be pg, BAM, Mother Nature sends her monthly gift. But I can handle this, my time will come. I have given this up to God and I KNOW he hears me and has a plan for me and Bart.

On to happier things. I completed one of the 2 tutus I am making for Christmas. It only took me about an hour and it is sooooo cute. I love the internet. I would have never thought I could make one and then I saw a tutorial online and here I am with one done and one more to go. I think I have figured out pretty much what we are getting everyone for Chritmas. I love the hunt... not necessarily the shopping hunt but the hunt for the right gift for each person. I hate gift cards and generic gifts in general. I love figuring out what each person would like or need. I don't think anyone in our family reads this or anyone at all but just in case I won't spell it out but later this week i will link up the ideas I have found on the internet, including the tutu tutorial.

OK- it is almost 11 p.m. and I need to go to bed. Bart has been asleep for over an hour and I could stay up a few more but I have to teach tomorrow. I will pay for it if I don't get in bed soon so tootels.

I got a new car!!!!!

Well- we did it. We got a new car, a Dodge Journey. I love it. It isn't too big and I don't feel like I am driving a bus but it is much bigger than my Corolla. It is silver. I never seem to pick the car by the color but by the price of which ever ones they have on the lot. I loved the blue one but it was a "fancier" model and I didn't want or need all the bells and whisles. I am actually glad that the satelite radio was removed from the car for some reason. OK- I'm watching Star Wars with my hubby tonight! Have a great week- I will.  P.S. I am 3 days late if you know what I mean. I am holding out a few more days before I take a pg test. Only time will tell.

When will i feel well again?

Bart and I ate at IHop last night and I tried the Gingerbread pancakes. While I was eating they tasted great, just like a warm soft gingerbread cake. But by the time we got home I was running for the bathroom. I puked my guts up. I am not sure if it was the pancakes or something else but it was not pleasent coming back up. No more new fangled pancakes for me. I will stick with the tried and true old-fashioned pancakes. Today was rough- I just don't do sick well. I hope this is the end of it.

I signed up for a Christmas card swap at the Scrap Shack. I am not sure what I want to do yet but I have until Dec. 1. I am sure I will be using my Winder Wonderland Cricut cartridge. I love that dang thing. I just need to make my choice of which die-cut will be my inspiration.

The weekend is upon us... I have no plans and I plan to take advantage of that. I need to catch up on clothes and cleaning the bathroom, reorganizing the front room.... The list can go on for ever and I plan to tackle it this weekend. Enjoy your weekend.

She's alive... maybe

OK- I don't get sick. I have been that way since I started school. Momma always said "she is as healthy as a horse" and "she has a cast iron stomach". Those phrases didn't describe me this week. The bug that got me, got me good. By Thursday I had to go to the doctor. I got 2 shots in the butt and a perscription for an antibiotic and cough medicine and I still don't feel all that great. It was easier to fake it yesterday but I slept until 9:45 today and I could still crawl back in bed and take a nap. I am breathing better and the cough isn't nearly as bad so i guess i am on the up swing.
  We are going to Jutta's house for Halloween and I can't wait to see the girls in their costumes. I made Apple Crack and I plan on eating some real food tonight. Have a Happy Halloween with all of your little gobblins and be safe!

I hate being sick!

I have run a low grade fever all day today. I don't think it ever got higher than 100.1 but I still feel like crap. I don't do sick well and Bart doesn't do me being sick well either. He has been very sweet all day but I know he is worried.  I am sure it is nothing but I hate being sick. So, i am off to sleep again... I'll be back when I'm better.

Friday...at last

It is such a beautiful day today. The high was like 72 degrees and the sun was shining all day. I just want to go sit in the backyard with the dogs and bask in the sunshine. Problem... we have no patio furniture. Nor do we have a patio, a nice porch but alas no chairs to lounge on and I am not one for sitting on the ground. We are having a family fun night tomorrow at my sister-in-law's house. It is always fun but last month it was a hoot and a half with Mr. Barry impersonating Hillary Clinton. I think I am going to run to Target tonight and see if I can find a new, interesting game. I saw Funglish the other day and it looked promising. I'll let you know how it turns out. No real plans for the weekend but Tuesday Bart and I are going to New Orleans to see Star Wars in Concert. He is so thrilled. Have a good weekend and I'll let you know how the new game and the concert turn out. =)

Christmas is coming....

I am not normally an early shopper for Christmas but this year I am inspired early. I have started making my gifts for school and I have a good idea what I want to get everyone. I just don't know what to get Bart's brother and his wife. Something will come to me. Last year my mother-in-law invited me to shopping day (the day after Thanksgiving) and I had a great time and found a bunch of good deals. I like to make as many gifts as I can but some people are hard to craft for. I am going to make tutus for the little girls and the teenagers are getting gift cards. I hate gift cards but the teenage set doesn't make gift giving easy. When I finish the stationary sets I am making for my co-workers I will post a picture. OK I am rambling, time to go cook dinner.

Mother Nature

Mother Nature is a bitch I tell ya. Bart and I had a nice dinner at a local Chinese restaurant and went do a little wandering around Target. $79 later we walk out with curtains for the bedroom closet (finally), a makeshift witches costume for me (that will be a whole other post) and some chips. We get home and my monthly gift has arrived. So that 1% chance that we were successful this month on the baby making project has now been dashed. The good news is that I seem to back to my 28 day cycle and I did not cry nor do I feel like crying. In the past few months I cried even when I knew there was no chance that I was pregnant. All of the emotions involved I guess. So here we go, off on another month of "trying" to make a baby. Lord help us. No really- we need His help and I am not too proud to beg.

Date Night

Bart and I are having a date night tonight. Not that we really need a date night we can do that any time we want but when he walks in the living room and says "How about date night tomorrow?" How can I tell him no? So no cooking for me tonight. I am going out to eat with my honey. Where you ask? I have not a clue, he won't tell. I don't care really but I'll let him think it is killing me to know what his plans are.

The Doctor's office called yesterday with my blood work results. It seems that with 2000mg of Glumetza daily my progesterone is up to 9.7. Considering that the "magic number" is 10, I feel like we are on the right path. I have to let go and let God do his work. I am such a micro manager of my own life. I have such a hard time letting go. But I am really trying this time. I guess I feel like if I write about here then it can't take up space in my brain and stew. Plus, I won't drive everyone crazy with my baby obsession.

Speaking of baby obsession, I am knitting a baby blanket. I saw one on a blog somewhere and I fell in love with it. I love to knit. It helps to calm me and get my mind to slow down. I can't really think about much while i am knitting beside the task at hand. I picked out two really pretty colors, this cool, grayish brown, sort of a taupe and a very pretty cream. I have no pattern and no clue what I am doing but I do know it will have 4 large stripes. This yarn is a very chunky yarn so i used a pair of number 17, circular needles and I cast on 99 stitches to start. I hope I finish it...

10 things you might not know about me...

I love these "quizzes" that you get from time to time in your inbox and thought I'd share one of my own.
1. I am super ticklish- you don't even have to touch me really. Just the thought of you tickling me can make me laugh.
2. I wanted to be a fashion designer when I was little. I just couldn't make the pictures I saw in my head come out onto paper.
3. My lucky number is 5.
4. I hate to drive. I would rather someone else do that.
5. <- That's my number =). I should really say 55 is my lucky number since my birthday is May 5, otherwise known as 5/5.
6. I want to be a momma so bad it actually hurts.
7. I am a procrastinator. My mom says I was born that way.
8. I was born 2 months premature. There goes mom's theory on me being born a procrastinator.
9. I love birds- images of birds not the actual live ones. I'm not sure why I am so enamored with "little fat" birds but I am.
10. I love to cook- really I do. I enjoy cooking dinner every night. Don't get me wrong, i enjoy a good night out with a meal but there is just something comforting about providing dinner for my husband.

I love Mondays.... NOT

I am not a morning person. My mother would tell you that this is a major understatement. I woke up a little late and rushed to get my blood work done and guess what? I beat the vampires to the office but it is all done. I hate giving blood. I don't know what it is, probably the fact that it is very hard to stick my veins. The vampire, I mean lady, was very good and got it on the first try. The Dr. says the magic number on the Day 21 blood work is 10. Last month I had a 4.7. I hope it goes up this time.
On to other topics... My school is going through SACS accreditation this year and our QART review is this week. I was a chairperson for one of the standards and I have to give a 2-5 minute talk about my standard. YUCK!!!! I am getting better about talking in public but I still talk too fast. I just need to breathe. Otherwise this week at work/school (those two words are one and the same in my book) looks like it is going to be pretty good. i only had tutoring tonight so i will be home by 5 on Wednesday (after the QART members give us the results of our review after school).
Wow! 10:00p.m. I'm heading to bed before I end up waking up late tomorrow too.

Your time will come...

"Don't worry, your time will come." I think I have hear that more times in my life than I care to count. If anyone ever reads this blog I am now married to Bart the wonderful 25 Days of Christmas guy. We were married on June 6, 2009 and have been trying to get pregnant since. We have yet to be successful and while I know we have only been married 4 1/2 months and that is not enough time to start worrying, I worry. I am 38 and I feel like my fertility window is about to close. I am getting my Day 21 blood work done Monday and we will start the cycle all over again. This month I am not going to tell Bart anything about this or that week being "the week" and I am going to not get so uptight and anxious (yeah right). Here we go, may this month be fruitful... Lord willing.