Saturdays

I really like lazy Saturdays. Bart is at work and I have the house to myself. I can clean the house and watch TV or play on the Internet at the same time. I really HATE to clean but I love the result so here I go.... Clean is just so daily or really weekly. I am going to finish cutting my squares for the I-Spy swap I signed up for and maybe start making the tote bags for my nieces. Wish me luck.

Happy Saturday

Nothing new in Holsapple abode.I went shopping today with Mrs. Susan and Emmalee at Sam's. I am not sure if I saved any money but I am taking my receipt with me to Wal-Mart to night when I get the rest of my groceries and I'll see. I need to do so much housework but I just don't feel like it. I'll get it done eventually but for now I'll make do. I need to find a way to motivate myself, cookies just don't work anymore =).

I hope I don't crack

Sometimes I think I am losing my mind- I know how I should feel but I I feel the exact opposite. I swear there are more people pregnant than not right now. At school last semester there were no less than 5 pregnant women and of all the blogs I follow there were 5 or 6 (I lost count) in the last month that have announced that they were pregnant. I want so badly to be pregnant- to have a child of my own but I feel like God is not willing to give me that precious gift.  I am not good enough. I feel like a broken record and no one wants to hear me cry about it, or worry about it anymore. Who wants to be around someone who is permanently depressed? So I am going to fake it until I make it or I crack up, which ever happens first.